no longer trying not to get pregnant

Hubby and I have been talking to each other for a while about the pros and cons of "trying". I know that he'd love to have a biological son, a namesake. The selfish part of me really wants to try the whole pregnancy/newborn thing again. 

The last time we spoke with the doctor about it, he warned against it. However, I have always struggled with trusting a doctor over allowing God's will. Hubby has been a bit more cautious. I suppose he has more to lose, in a way. After all, if I leave the face of the earth, he is left alone with small children. 

So, the final decision has become, "we'll see what happens"....