Yesterday we had a follow-up appointment with my cardiologist. At that appointment we asked the primary concern "Is there a medication that is safe to take during pregnancy to keep my heart in sinus rhythm?" The answer is "No."
That was the last question that we needed answered to know that I cannot and will not carry another pregnancy. It is the answer that we expected, but there has been a small glimmer of hope this whole time.
Now we have clarity on that portion and we have other decisions to make. Are we done with babies? Will we try to adopt a baby? Will we use a gestational carrier?
Along with those questions come the ethical questions. Is it right to use a gestational carrier or are we playing God? Is it right to spend money to add to your family? Is it wrong to allow our one biological child remain the one and only?
Only time will tell.