We're driving home from Phoenix, Hubby and I. It's a time of discouragement, for me at least. In the last few months I have seen my health declining. I've begun attempts at exercising, along with vitamins and good food, but I've gone into Atrial Fibrilation 4 times in the last 2 months. It has been frustrating because it requires rapid response, someone has to come watch the kids, we have to make the 4.5 hour trek to Phoenix, get checked into the Emergency Department at St. Joseph's hospital, wait for my cardiologist to approve a cardioversion, then they shock me and we head home. Until this time. This time they shocked me three times and I remained out of sync. At that point they decided to admit me for the night, put me on an amniodarone drip (it's a heart medication that helps convert to a normal sinus rythym) and try again in the morning. Which is what they did. And it worked, Praise The Lord!
But.
But what has caused this to happen so frequently? But is there a way to fix it? But this isn't fair to my husband. But this isn't fair to my dear mother-in-law who has been watching my kids for 2 days! But I have little kids who I'd really like to raise into amazing God-fearing adults who give us oodles of grandbabies to spoil!
So, I'm on an increased dosage of my heart medication and we have an appointment with an electrophysiologist next Friday. Maybe he will have some answers. Maybe he won't.
For now I need to figure out how to focus on my priorities: My relationship with Christ and training my children why I love Him. And then that other stuff, try to make my body get stronger, so that I can have a smooth running household and I can be a cheerful wife and I can homeschool my kids.
At this point all prayers are greatly appreciated. I know that the Creator of the Universe is not surprised and can be glorified in all of this, but it sure feels easy to be discouraged.
